Im super depressed right now..

I have my scissors that I use to cut right with me.

Im tracing the blade with my fingers.

Jake just used "If you love me you wont cut"

I do love him to death. What he said hurt though.

I want to cut because of it. My urge is just getting stronger.

If I could id throw the scissors across the room.

But then my mom would hear and ask what happend.

I really dont feel like telling her I was so depressed I couldnt even cut.

I hate myself. I hate my life. I hate everything about me.

I hope I die soon.

Jakes scar is huge compared to the others. I really hope I dont lose him..

It would hurt more.